Who invented all these school holidays and why?! I’m sure Google has the answer but I don’t really want to know – I just wish it wasn’t so.
I love my darling offspring, I really do, but right now living with them is hard. They genuinely don’t seem to like each other. I don’t know if it’s the age difference (2.5 years) or because they both have ridiculously strong, leadership personalities but I am really fed up of playing referee.
I know it’s probably normal in some households and in others, some people are blessed with children who genuinely just adore each other and hardly argue – Miss 6 loved Master 4 when he was a baby before he could talk and make his own decisions. Master 4 has always been totally aggressive towards Miss 6 and been lucky she never retaliates physically.
During this October half term, I have been able to clearly see how real the power struggle is between the two of them. Miss 6 just wants to be in charge and tries to boss, rule, and demand of Master 4 by generally speaking over him and trying to make sure she has things her way. As a response, Master 4 has started crying on cue, screaming at her and has now started hitting her too.
I. Am. Tired! I had this dream of my children loving each other because they’re so close in age, helping each other, listening and playing nicely. I got the opposite. Please tell me it’s just a phase? I don’t think I can wait for them to get grown to realise they really love each other and mum never deserved all those premature grey hairs (I don’t have any…. yet)
In other news…
After 10 months in my temporary CSO council role, moving from in hours to emergency out of hours and making quite a few friends along the way – I have a new job. I will be working as an HR apprentice for a large charity organisation for a minimum of 2 years. I will gain my Level 3 CIPD for HR which has been my dream for a while now and I can get it without having to go to Uni.
Yes, I’m 28 and that’s on the older side for an apprentice BUT the rules have changed and now people of all ages can do an apprenticeship. It allows people to work and earn money whilst getting a valuable qualification and/or foot in the door.
This is the opportunity I needed and I’m super excited to see how it progresses.
After school childcare. What a hassle this is proving to be. Master 4 is only in the school nursery so he is too young to go to their afterschool provision. Trying to find a nanny that is affordable but willing to start working for only 10 hours a week initially is HARD. It’s not worthwhile for them moneywise and most are looking for at least 20 hours a week.
I thought it would be easy but alas. A childminder with multiple children won’t really have the time or ability to take Miss 6 to her sports activities 2-3 times a week so a nanny is pretty essential. Plus it helps us if we don’t have to travel to somebody else’s house after coming back from work (60+ min journey for myself).
We are hopeful we will find somebody when the time is right but for somebody who suffers from anxiety and needs to feel in control, all of this waiting and uncertainty is really hard.