I wanted to answer a few questions in this post as well as giving my usual update because I think there are questions I would have if I was reading these weekly posts:
Does talking therapy work?
For some people, yes. It is one of the most common types of therapy used for mental health illnesses but you do need to be open to it, willing to be honest, cooperative and want the help. You also need to find a therapist that you feel comfortable with and find easy to talk to – most therapists offer a free or lower rate initial consultation meeting for this reason.
How much does therapy cost?
This depends on each therapist, the area they are in, the costs they need to cover etc. Some therapists may offer discounts, some may not. When searching for my therapist, I was looking in West London and the area I work in and the price ranged from £60 – £120 for an hour. This usually covers the cost of the session and any costs the therapist may have i.e. for the space they use to hold their sessions. The charity Anxiety UK also offers discounted therapy for members.
Can you get therapy for free?
Talking therapy is available on the NHS. It is not unlimited but if your therapy needs are short-term, it can be highly beneficial. Once your free sessions end, you will need to wait 6 months before you can have NHS therapy sessions again.
How to find a therapist?
I found a therapist by searching through both the Counselling Directory and UKCP websites. I contacted over 10 therapists before I found the one I am currently with who can be found on his website also.
My session today
Today during therapy, we discussed the anxiety I felt whilst on a crowded train yesterday evening – I literally wanted to get off of the train which is something I’ve experienced before on trains and buses, and then that developed into where my high sense of danger and need for safety comes from.
I allowed myself to feel nothing. That’s me being honest. I’m not at a stage yet where I can allow myself to feel things when talking about the harder, deeper parts of my childhood – and that’s okay.
With Sam’s help, I began to see how parts of my anxiety that sense danger when there is none are linked to living in a volatile home where there wasn’t a lot of safety – or I could say a home where I didn’t feel safe and often found myself without a protector.
We talked about specific parts of my childhood that we hadn’t gone into detail about before and the fact that it makes sense why I developed so many coping mechanisms to protect myself in the only ways I knew how.
Today I heard how hard I found life between the ages of 14 and 16 although I didn’t feel it.
Going forward for the next week, I need to accept that this is a process of working through habits and coping mechanisms that have developed over 28 years and undoing some of that workwon’t happen in days, weeks or maybe even months. It took time for me to get here and it will take time for me to grow through it.
I hope I managed to answer any questions you might have about talking therapy and if there is anything I missed, feel free to ask me in the comments. Also, make sure you follow me on Bloglovin so you never miss another post!